Dave Grohl was told Kurt Cobain died month before suicide


Dave Grohl needed to endure the ache of Kurt Cobain’s loss of life not as soon as however twice.

In his new memoir, “The Storyteller: Tales of Life and Music,” the rocker recounts how he acquired a name — after Cobain overdosed at a Rome lodge on March 3, 1994 — saying that his Nirvana bandmate had died.

“My knees gave out and I dropped the phone as I fell to my bedroom floor, covering my face with my hands as I began to cry,” writes Grohl, 52, in his ebook, which was launched on Tuesday.

“He was gone. The shy young man who had offered me an apple upon our first introduction at the Seattle airport was gone. My quiet, introverted roommate who I’d shared a tiny little apartment with in Olympia was gone. The loving father who played with his beautiful baby daughter backstage every night before each show was gone. I was overcome with a more profound sadness than I had ever imagined.”

That profound unhappiness, although, was quickly met with super aid when Grohl acquired one other name saying that Cobain was really nonetheless alive — and that he was going to make it.

In his new memoir, Dave Grohl writes about residing with Kurt Cobain (heart, with fellow Nirvana member Krist Novoselic at proper) in an Olympia, Washington, condo that seemed like “Whitney Houston’s bathroom turned upside down”
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“In the course of five minutes I had gone from the darkest day of my entire life to feeling born again,” he writes. “From that day forward, I built my walls higher.”

But in a merciless twist, Grohl must undergo that trauma over again only a month later, when information of Cobain’s suicide got here early the morning of April 8 (though police concluded that he really died on April 5 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the pinnacle).

“This time it was for real. He was gone,” he writes. “There was no second phone call to right the wrong. To turn the tragedy around. It was final.”

There just isn’t a single point out of Cobain’s widow, Courtney Love, within the 384-page ebook.

Losing Cobain twice in 30-something days, Grohl struggled to grieve correctly.

“It was stuck somewhere deep within me, blocked by the trauma from a month before when I had been left in a state of conflicted emotional confusion,” he writes.

“ ‘Empathy!’ Kurt wrote in his suicide note, and there were times where I would beg my heart to feel the pain he must have felt. Ask for it to break. I would try to wring the tears from my eyes as I cursed those f—king walls I had built so high, because they kept me from the feelings I desperately needed to feel.”

Today, although, Grohl can really feel all the ache of the primary time that he acquired the decision. “To this day I am often overcome with that same profound sadness that sent me to the floor the first time I was told Kurt had died,” he writes.

The Foo Fighters frontman additionally shares reminiscences of all the things from residing with Cobain of their Olympia, Wash., one-bedroom condo that seemed like “Whitney Houston’s bathroom turned upside down,” to discovering that his roommate was utilizing heroin in January 1991: “I had never known anyone who used heroin before and knew very little about it, so I was shocked.”

Interestingly, there’s not a single point out of Cobain’s widow, Courtney Love, within the 384-page ebook.

And now — 30 years after Nirvana’s basic “Nevermind” got here out, on Sept. 24, 1991 — “not a day goes by” when the drummer doesn’t consider Cobain.

“But it’s when I sit down at a drum set that I feel Kurt the most,” he writes. “It’s not often that I play the songs that we played together, but when I sit on that stool, I can still picture him in front of me, wrestling with his guitar as he screamed his lungs raw into the microphone.”